Since finding out about this “abnormality” issue, I have been kind of in a state of auto pilot. Doing what I got to do till I can see the doctor to discuss what we gotta to do. While on this auto pilot state I have not been sleeping well. I have been waking up. A lot. Normally, I wake up 2 or 3 times a night but, not being fully awake. Mostly for when I am shifting positions. These current wake ups are full fledge wake ups. I immediately start thinking about the “abnormality” inside of me or what am I going to do if it IS malignant and the procedures, the medicines, the money….ARRRRRRG!
I told my father. I decided to tell him because I did not want him to get upset if I kept it from him. I knew he would be concerned. We are not telling my sister and niece till we know for sure though. He is very concerned of course. I told him to not worry and we will take it step by step. I’ll keep him informed with everything.
Hopefully, I will start sleeping better…. Trying not to focus on anything negative until I know what the doctor says.
Wish Friday would get here…