Since finding out about this “abnormality” issue, I have been kind of in a state of auto pilot.  Doing what I got to do till I can see the doctor to discuss what we gotta to do.  While on this auto pilot state I have not been sleeping well.  I have been waking up.  A lot.  Normally, I wake up 2 or 3 times a night but, not being fully awake. Mostly for when I am shifting positions.  These current wake ups are full fledge wake ups.  I immediately start thinking about the “abnormality” inside of me or what am I going to do if it IS malignant and the procedures, the medicines, the money….ARRRRRRG!

I told my father.  I decided to tell him because I did not want him to get upset if I kept it from him.  I knew he would be concerned.  We are not telling my sister and niece till we know for sure though.  He is very concerned of course.  I told him to not worry and we will take it step by step.  I’ll keep him informed with everything.

Hopefully, I will start sleeping better….  Trying not to focus on anything negative until I know what the doctor says.

Wish Friday would get here…